Change

I've been at my current job for five years and its been an interesting experience. I hope I've at least inculcated a sense of curiosity in the students.

Friday was extremely emotional for me. I told JL about my job offer and he was so happy for me. He did a little research on the school in India and told me there were no red flags that he knew of. He was a little upset that I hadn't told him sooner that I was unhappy...but that's the way the cookie crumbles when you're boss. I did tell him as soon as possible though, because I owe him that, and he is a great boss.

We had a meeting with the Class of 2009 about their semi-formal. They were so enthusiastic. I got sad thinking they would move on without me. As I went through the motions and taught on Friday, every class I taught almost made me cry. It was ridiculous.

I have been dying to tell people at work, but I won't until I get the contract in the mail.

After having a few drinks with some friends after work I came home and had a good cry. All the personal stuff that I'd been feeling, leaving my friends, leaving the school, the change itself weighed down on me. I want to get all the crying out of my system. I WILL NOT under any circumstances cry in school, in front of the student body. It WILL NOT happen!

I think that is the toughest part of being a teacher...the emotional connections. I kept telling myself, another year, another year, another year...and now it has finally arrived.

I hate long goodbyes. They are awkward. So now the nitty-gritty starts: the packing, donating, sorting out finances etc.

JN spoke about a big goodbye party. I don't want that. I don't really want a lot of people to know. Just the people I'm close to: RK, NM, KN, and JS from my friends in NY; JN, FM, and MM from my friends in MI.

Time is going to go by so quickly.

I set up this blog again to basically recount my experiences in India and to be connected to those close to me. I hope I'll be able to update it frequently.